‘Beautiful Chaos’

On 14th November 2018 my first book, ‘Beautiful Chaos’, was published in the UK, and will be released in America next year.


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“When the young Ali Douglas decided she wanted a career on television, she found a way to make it happen. She pushed and pushed until she landed her first TV job. But as her public profile grew, Ali’s life got harder, stranger, and more chaotic.

Beautiful Chaos takes us to the heart of the tsunami that was Ali’s life. From the exhilarating highs to the debilitating lows, Ali lived life beset by the effects of an illness that she didn’t even know she had. From the outside, Ali appeared glamorous and successful. But really, she was frequently lonely and depressed. Ali had achieved what she’d always wanted, but she wasn’t happy.

Ali was 35 years old when she was finally diagnosed with Bipolar 2 and everything changed. That’s when Ali embarked on a whole new adventure a new relationship, a son, and a new way of looking at life.

Ali doesn’t hold anything back. She lays her life bare, and takes us on a journey from her darkest days to her brighter future, showing us how she learned to find beauty in chaos.”

About the Author

An established television presenter for more than 20 years, Ali Douglas presented the ITN national news, and made history by becoming the first woman to present football’s Scottish Premier League. Despite her outwardly glamorous, showbiz lifestyle, mixing with sports personalities and TV celebrities, Ali was secretly fighting wild mood swings and devastating depression, and turned to drugs and alcohol as a way to escape. At her lowest point, she came dangerously close to ending her life. After 35 years of battling serious mental illness, Ali was eventually diagnosed with bipolar disorder II. The diagnosis changed her life beyond recognition. In a journey of self-discovery, healing and acceptance, Ali’s first non-fiction book, ‘Beautiful Chaos’, describes her chaotic, heart wrenching, but at times amusing existence, prior to receiving treatment and finding the determination to seek out a meaningful and happy life. Compassionate, informative and funny, ‘Beautiful Chaos’ depicts a breathtakingly honest account of what it’s really like to live with bipolar.


Ali Douglas’ captivating memoir Beautiful Chaos reveals a woman’s agonizing reality behind the glamorous world of television presenting as she battles bipolar II illness. Douglas vividly describes the mental chaos that almost annihilated her. Ultimately she accepts her mood disorder and learns how to see the beauty in life once again. At present, there are few memoirs that authentically capture the bipolar II experience, but Douglas shines a light on the gravity of this mental illness while inspiring the reader through her conversational tone, humour, and compassion. —— Dyane Harwood, Author of Birth of a New Brain, Healing from Postpartum Bipolar Disorder